horses & deer ... hmmmmm

well I will start with the girls horseback riding .... their new passion. storie she is a natural comfortable and cute, learns fast and smart. she was galloping with her arms out like an airplane balancing all on her own, mind you this was the first lesson. i think she has found her niche. saylor, look really close at the picture of just saylor on harry the horse and you will see the happiest face in the whole world. i love animals much more than nate but i dont have this weird very spooky connection with them like her. i think this might also be her niche and i cant help but want to buys saylor one of these theraputic animals for her. oh boy what that would get me into. seriously i think a minature might be perfect for her. i will keep dreaming and maybe someday!

onto the hunt. yesterday was the first day of the muzzleloader hunt. because nate is a dedicated hunter he hunts most hunts. its confusing i know. anyhow he bought himself a new muzzleloader played with it all afternoon then headed to the cabin in the evening to hunt. i serioulsy know few men as spoiled as this one! around 8:30 i talked to him and found him to be on his way home with a 4 point. the best thing is that this saves me from weeks of widowness. and of course my hubby is really happy. he got home pretty late and i couldnt help getting my son out of bed at midnight to share is this cool father son man boy thing. for you hunting skeptic tree huggers out there. i didnt grow up in a hunting family so this is foreign to me even after 10 years of marriage i just dont get it. but serioulsy we would be over run by animials and the problems that come with them if there werent hunts. lets not forget that someday we might be relying on these trusty knowledgable hunters to survive .... its possible. so i am not to opposed, but i am also not thrilled about the skinless gutless deer hanging in my garage. hope it goes to the locker soon! good job nate!

tutu

i am sure that not more than one person on this earth finds this adorable and that one person is me! saylor feel asleep in a dress up and she just looked so cute. her legs and feet naked in this tutu just reminded me of what being a little girl is all about and i couldnt resist getting a few shots in. not to mention soon those legs and peds will not be visable to our eyes for a few weeks. i rememberr the first time we did a set of serial casting and how sad i was to loose her tiny little clubbed feet. to me they were perfect and i loved her just the way she was. i didnt want to change her imperfect perfection. this time isnt as hard now that i see how much the function would benefit her but i still feel a little twinge of that.

emma's wedding

recently emma tobler got married (basically my little sister.) of course i did all the flowers and a lot of the decor so check out my company blog if you want to see more of that. dancin was not as happening as it was at carries non the less my family was some of the few that took advantage, with the exception of me. yes that is my little brother in there and my parents and a few of nate. nothing sweeter than memories. stock looks so cute chillin with his dad. he looks so much older with hair and i love it! especially when he lets me mohawk it, which isnt very often. he just is soooo cute. emma & nate's getaway car wasnt a car at all it was a helicopter. getaway was intense and fun for everyone and oh so emma, over the top! it was a blast!

we are all doing well just busy with studio stems for me but coming into a quieter time that i will welcome with open arms and some much needed time off (especially with surgery coming.) nate is getting ready for the muzzle load hunt. he will be gone from tuesday on is my understanding. pray that he will get a deer fast! we are also still in the thick of what i call "nate's season" hunting, playing football, watching football on TV non stop, and of course going to byu football. today is one of those days. stockton is doing really well in school, he has been a challenge for me where storie is just smart beyong her years. but we are figuring out how he works. of course storie is her usualy smart and advanced self. she recently told her teacher, "you know i just love the book of mormon, and you know what i love more? the way my dad tells the stories. you know i can just understand it better, he's so good at it!" saylor decided she wants a boa constrictor and she wants to be one for halloween now. so that covers the bases for this week.

SAYLOR UPDATE

so i know some of you out there are waiting to here what the fall brings for our family surgically. then again i am not sure really anyone reads this blog so maybe this is just for me .... oh well.

clinic took us by surprise when the first doc who walked in was saylors orthopedic surgeon who has been consistent in his decision to wait to correct her feet deformities any farther until her feet become bigger, suddenly decides now is the time. ok .... well, not what i planned. so bone fusing, pinning, ligament slicing, tendon releasing, and whatever else he has planned will occure on october 9th and will follow with a few months of casts as expected. saylor has never been old enough during surgery to really express herself so i think this will be interesting. easier in some ways and much harder in others. she also i think will grow furstrated pretty rapidly that movement is inhibited for the time being and wether she likes her chair or not she will have to use it.

as for her bladder surgery .... well the docs still think its would be better to wait until spring which is not the best time for us to do it considering i can make the most money in spring and summer. but for now we will just wait and make that decision later. so next year it looks like. we also found out a lot more about this surgery and the risks that come with it, more particularly the long term ones and they are not good. so i think we need the time to sit on it a while.

she is upset that she wont be getting big girl panties anytime soon but she understands that she must be 5 first. she is seeminly handling all the info we give her and seems ready for surgery. i know that day will come and just like when clinic comes she suddenly is not ok with going anymore. so pray for her and for us as i know you all do anyway.

we lost a spina bifida friend this last week. this has been hard for me as a mother. jamie was one of the strongest people i have ever known. his parents have been true supporters and friends to nate and i and amazing examples of strength. we will miss you jamie and we love you!

Nelson Mandella 1994 Inaugural Speech

Our biggest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It's our light not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightned about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

summer fun

Nate and Stock at the cabin. nate hasnt changed much in the 10 years i have known him. still hot young and so muscley. yes i know thats spelled wrong! stockton has been spending a lot of time with dad hunting and what not. going to nearly all of nates extra sporting activities too. but soon the young lad will start wrestling he is pumped. plus now we are in the thick of the hunting season and he would so much rather be with nate in the mountains then mom at the nordstroms mac counter or on a long walk to walk off moms fat. fun!

the next one is of storie at the cabin. just a cute picture i thought i would include. she is doing great, this new school is so good for her cause it has so many specialtys that she enjoys like art and music. she is reading like an adult these days it seems like.

saylor hanging out at the cabin on the porch steps aarons toes behind her, braids barely hanging in there.

couldnt leave pictures out of aaron and hallie during there summer visit to utah. we had so much fun spending a few days with them at the cabin.

100s of years of pillows. we recently decided that if everyone abhors the cabin pillows and puts a new case or shirt over them to sleep on then it was long past time to get new ones. here is the stck of pillows that made there way out of the cabin and down to the garbage. cabin pillows that just have been there for years and years like 20-30 years each so i figure this is a couple hundred years of pillows. had to pay tribute.

storie shootin down the wards slip n slide with a neighbor girl. was a blast for the kids. stock all wet from the same culprit.

saylor holding dads football for him. shes so cute. we will be going to clinic on the 14th of sept. we expect to know then when surgery might be on her bladder. she is mostly pooping on the potty these days. though its a difficult surgery its necessary at some point. she is a little young but this time of year is best for her and our family we feel. we want her to go too kindergarten potty trained and not in diapers which is in a full year from now. but its a 3 month recovery and fall is the best time for me if i want to continue to contribute to the funds in this family its slow season. i am hoping to have her healed and starting to potty train really in january or feb which means surgery in oct or nov. busy season will start in march with designs and by april i will be slammed again through the summer then kindergarten. so pray that what is right for us and her will be what the docs decide in the coming weeks.

so thats the jist for now. love you all!!!!!