rebel mom .... Y hawk

we are having "hair" issues as of late. stock's hair was getting a little long, it was time for a trimmin! he decided he wanted his infamous Y-hawk back. no big deal right ... had it before .... well i shave it in, next day he goes to school and i get informed that he cant come back until the y is gone. WHAT? i was so perturbed if thats even a word .... so rebel mom actual considers keeping him home and fighting the battle. his hair was to distracting and outrageous for his principal. in the end i decided not to fight this battle that his education was more important, but not before taking a pic of it!

happy birthday audrey!

as colbie calliet would say "its kind of tough getting older!"

I am not posting this cause i want everyone to send me birthday wishes (but still go a head!) but because i spent a lot of time this morning reflecting on just how beautiful and blessed my life is and i sort of want to pay tribute to it!

i woke up to my favorite breakfast, german pancakes, carefully prepared by two darling wonderful children who woke up early themselves determine to make me breakfast and talked their dad into helping. it was a great morning i felt rejuvinated and happy. no yelling just peace. kids were perfect! loaded them all up to school (even though saylor was a little congested) and headed where else ... sundance. perfect boarding day, i was warm and toasty, snow was great and not too crowded. the time alone on the lifts, left me to thinking and evaluating. this post could get really really long but to sum it all up tightly i am so happy with my life and where i am! i am so in love with nate and my kids and our lifes! not that i dont want to progress i do but today it was good enough to just be proud of me and what i have accomplished. i dont feel that very often and i never say it to myself and really mean it, but today i did. i am so blessed and through these blessing and gifts i have accomplished much and created such a beautiful happy life! without the gospel and my heavenly father and his son none of this would be.

of course i came down of my high to an even more congested saylor with a fever, storie calling to come home from school because she is vommiting, and work to do. none the less nothing could ruin how i feel today!

i want my friends and family to know that today ...... i am most grateful for them and love them very much!

thank goodness for great music today too that is lending to a sustaining mood!

limitations ....

LIMITATIONS

Click on this, watch and think. then ask yourself this, are limitations really physical or do they have more to do with your spirit?

i could argue both ways on this but living in a heaven on earth w/an angel in my home causes me to reflect a little more often on what my own limitations really are and how much my spirit has to do with this. we know a lot of disabled kids, after all we reside in holland, and some feed off their limitations and others like this wrestler that stockton worships, like aaron fatheringham a wheelchair master, and my saylor, cause ponder ....

PS sorry that the posts usually reflect our lifes around saylor ... its how we do things around here, if you have opportunity to live next to someone so pure and so gifted and so special you do then you start to live around them. this must get overdone though. i will try and be more creative and share more about us all.

this post really came more from stock the rock who is so amazing at wrestling who is doing so well and worships how tough this kids is! he is breaking fast and smoothly into the whole wrestling world here locally, some of which has to do with his fathers contacts and knowing everyone and anyone as well as his amazing coolness that goes with him where ever he is. its like some weird chemical he emits! its crazy popular! love that kid!

Saylor is lost .... inside her new grown up self

Some of you have been waiting and watching for these pics, some of you are unaware of what i speak of ... so here goes the story.

tuesday afternoon i gave saylor a little itty bitty trim, then put her hair in pigtail braids and we moved on with the day ... or i did. apparantly this sparked fascination in my little ones mind. first chance she got away from me she got my sheers and gave herself a cut, i guess more like what she had in mind,something short. initially i didnt realize how bad it was until i took her braids out and saw just how much she had chopped into her hair! of course WE cried!

The damage .... two braided ponytails chopped off at the ends and snipped here and there and on one side a lot!!!!



oh the hair ... all the hair ... or should i say not all of it but the vast majority!


getting a hair cut from mom at home just after saylor gave herself a haircut, she is demonstrating just how i should go about doing this!


Getting a real haircut from a REAL hair ARTIST! this is where the plug for dan harmon @ studio nine SLC 900 S 926 E! if you know me you know i know a lot of hairdressers and likes, and he is the only one that i will let touch my hair from now on .... that is if i can continue to afford him! he is amazing! I knew he could make organization out of the chaos that saylor and i created!


I kept a good eye on dan but he lost saylor while in his chair in the short time he was responsible for her .... where is she?


My darling just hanging out at home w/mom making telescopes, playing silly, and making sure i know just how life really works, long hair or short!

monumental CUT

hmmmm. what could this mean? so that almost inevitable moment in a little girls life has happend to saylor and our family. that moment when the perfect hair becomes 1 inch long because sizzors and a curious mind dont fit togther. stay tuned for pictures ....

everyday JOY

A few small simple seemingly miracle less little things that have brought me lots of joy in that last few days! my little miracles that bring much needed happiness to my little heart.

Besides my wedding ring ... no other piece of jewlery has brought me more joy than this spider! thank you nate! thanks for loving your eccentric wife. i love this thing!


Finding a surprise in my little brothers room. he is single, messy, and we havent always gotten a long so well. i find in his room on his night stand a framed picture ... a surprise in and of it self but not only that ... its of me and my kids! that made my day!!!!!

the Wii - the first gaming system to bring my little family together and not apart, clean fun! so much JOY


Boarding the 90 & 9 with my bro in law aaron and my hub. Knowing that "i might die" still doing it, loving it too! first real back country experience in years. cant wait to do it again. also finding out from my very experienced boarder brother that people die on that run all of the time. oops! I DID IT! not well but i did it!


studio stems gellies ... they bring joy to those that dont have sensory issues! these little things are balls of moisture and decor for floral design but they are so much more than that .... little balls of sensory fun!


My darling sister in law, who has been a sister to me in every sense of the word! posts this darling story on her blog .... it brings me to tears ... and brings me joy

Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure.
Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, 'I love you and I wish you enough'.
The daughter replied, 'Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom'.
They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking, 'Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?'.
Yes, I have,' I replied.
'Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?'.
'I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral,' she said.
'When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough'. May I ask what that means?'.
She began to smile. 'That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone'. She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more. 'When we said , ' I wish you enough', we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them'. Then turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory.

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.
I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.
She then began to cry and walked away.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them but then an entire life to forget them.

and last but not least ALL THE SNOW! means great boarding! the joy of going a few times a week is my high that keeps my happy and ME!

i am joy tagging .... those that bring me joy, heather, susan, sara, angie, darla, jolynn, ashley and anyone else that blogs! CAUSE BLOGS BRING ME JOY!

Saylor Ski's !!!!!!

So long awaited ski pics. some of you have heard that saylor is skiing. how did this come about you say? well we have heard of the National Ability Ski program but have always been told that she is too small for their equipment, meaning chair skiing equipment. Nate and i really want to pursue this snow venture simply because its where i love to be in the winter! nate enjoys boarding and i intend on teaching the other two kids and we have always concerned over that this might leave saylor out and how that hurts us and is not what we wanted. saylor has this great physical therapist, mind you he is pricey and no insurance coverage here, mike workman, and he works her hard! he suggested that saylor ski, like any kid would and felt she was capable. he started putting her in boots and skiis and pulling her around at therapy on carpet. so i started looking into some places he recommended and found WAS wasatch adaptive sports at snowbird. To make a long story short she is now in that program with a full scholarship given to her by the director of the program peter mandler and funded by steve young. gratefully cause we wanted this but could not afford its steep fees. she will go every week for the remainder of the winter, granted good health.

as you can imagine this was an emotional step for everyone in our little fam. especially nate and i as we watch our miraculous lifes happen before us. our gratitude has been immensly deep as of late, as well as our wonder as to how we are so blessed to have this angel in our lives so closely. there was our twisted little girl that supposidly would never even walk, skiing, like any kid would learn to ski. my heart is full!

Almost ready! having a talk with dad before she heads up the lift with brian and peter.


Proof that saylor can do it, standing on her own in this whole getup! so much layers and stuff and helmet and goggles and all that junk and there she is on her own in skis


Riding the lift. A hard thing for me as a parent to let happen! i think the lift is a scary thing! getting on and off requires so much coordination and its hard to trust someone else i hardly know with her safety! another reminder that its my calling to share her and not hord her!


Look at her, would you even know that she is anything more than just a kid skiing for the very first time? i wouldnt! maybe though thats because i dont ski!