fear & responsibility

this is where i will be today, speaking in front of a few legislatures & their staff. so nervous! but how can i pass up an opportunity to make a difference. I am speaking on how being on the DSPD waiting list without medicaid services for saylor has affected us over the last 5 years. pray for me! i want so badly to make such a profound impact that no matter how the vote turns out this mom, and her family's circumstances will not be forgotten!

rebel mom .... Y hawk

we are having "hair" issues as of late. stock's hair was getting a little long, it was time for a trimmin! he decided he wanted his infamous Y-hawk back. no big deal right ... had it before .... well i shave it in, next day he goes to school and i get informed that he cant come back until the y is gone. WHAT? i was so perturbed if thats even a word .... so rebel mom actual considers keeping him home and fighting the battle. his hair was to distracting and outrageous for his principal. in the end i decided not to fight this battle that his education was more important, but not before taking a pic of it!

happy birthday audrey!

as colbie calliet would say "its kind of tough getting older!"

I am not posting this cause i want everyone to send me birthday wishes (but still go a head!) but because i spent a lot of time this morning reflecting on just how beautiful and blessed my life is and i sort of want to pay tribute to it!

i woke up to my favorite breakfast, german pancakes, carefully prepared by two darling wonderful children who woke up early themselves determine to make me breakfast and talked their dad into helping. it was a great morning i felt rejuvinated and happy. no yelling just peace. kids were perfect! loaded them all up to school (even though saylor was a little congested) and headed where else ... sundance. perfect boarding day, i was warm and toasty, snow was great and not too crowded. the time alone on the lifts, left me to thinking and evaluating. this post could get really really long but to sum it all up tightly i am so happy with my life and where i am! i am so in love with nate and my kids and our lifes! not that i dont want to progress i do but today it was good enough to just be proud of me and what i have accomplished. i dont feel that very often and i never say it to myself and really mean it, but today i did. i am so blessed and through these blessing and gifts i have accomplished much and created such a beautiful happy life! without the gospel and my heavenly father and his son none of this would be.

of course i came down of my high to an even more congested saylor with a fever, storie calling to come home from school because she is vommiting, and work to do. none the less nothing could ruin how i feel today!

i want my friends and family to know that today ...... i am most grateful for them and love them very much!

thank goodness for great music today too that is lending to a sustaining mood!

limitations ....

LIMITATIONS

Click on this, watch and think. then ask yourself this, are limitations really physical or do they have more to do with your spirit?

i could argue both ways on this but living in a heaven on earth w/an angel in my home causes me to reflect a little more often on what my own limitations really are and how much my spirit has to do with this. we know a lot of disabled kids, after all we reside in holland, and some feed off their limitations and others like this wrestler that stockton worships, like aaron fatheringham a wheelchair master, and my saylor, cause ponder ....

PS sorry that the posts usually reflect our lifes around saylor ... its how we do things around here, if you have opportunity to live next to someone so pure and so gifted and so special you do then you start to live around them. this must get overdone though. i will try and be more creative and share more about us all.

this post really came more from stock the rock who is so amazing at wrestling who is doing so well and worships how tough this kids is! he is breaking fast and smoothly into the whole wrestling world here locally, some of which has to do with his fathers contacts and knowing everyone and anyone as well as his amazing coolness that goes with him where ever he is. its like some weird chemical he emits! its crazy popular! love that kid!

Saylor is lost .... inside her new grown up self

Some of you have been waiting and watching for these pics, some of you are unaware of what i speak of ... so here goes the story.

tuesday afternoon i gave saylor a little itty bitty trim, then put her hair in pigtail braids and we moved on with the day ... or i did. apparantly this sparked fascination in my little ones mind. first chance she got away from me she got my sheers and gave herself a cut, i guess more like what she had in mind,something short. initially i didnt realize how bad it was until i took her braids out and saw just how much she had chopped into her hair! of course WE cried!

The damage .... two braided ponytails chopped off at the ends and snipped here and there and on one side a lot!!!!



oh the hair ... all the hair ... or should i say not all of it but the vast majority!


getting a hair cut from mom at home just after saylor gave herself a haircut, she is demonstrating just how i should go about doing this!


Getting a real haircut from a REAL hair ARTIST! this is where the plug for dan harmon @ studio nine SLC 900 S 926 E! if you know me you know i know a lot of hairdressers and likes, and he is the only one that i will let touch my hair from now on .... that is if i can continue to afford him! he is amazing! I knew he could make organization out of the chaos that saylor and i created!


I kept a good eye on dan but he lost saylor while in his chair in the short time he was responsible for her .... where is she?


My darling just hanging out at home w/mom making telescopes, playing silly, and making sure i know just how life really works, long hair or short!

monumental CUT

hmmmm. what could this mean? so that almost inevitable moment in a little girls life has happend to saylor and our family. that moment when the perfect hair becomes 1 inch long because sizzors and a curious mind dont fit togther. stay tuned for pictures ....