Pizza Partaaaay! & a general update

So this year storie decided on a small friend party and as it turns out nine really is fine. her birthday is not really until sunday, at which time she will have a small friend/family party. but this one was more like "her friends" just 5 cute little girls. she wanted to theme it "pizza party". last week while grandpa murph was here on a visit he got her a pizza making kit and so we decided that we would use it at the party. in the past i have really not enjoyed the kids "friends" parties. perhaps i am not the mom i aspire to be, but really i find entertaining small children of that quantity to be hard and exhausting. this was different ... they are sort of ready to entertain themselves at this age, its comical to watch! and is now entertaining me .... we have finally arrived!




so each girl made their own individual pizza, tossed dough and all. as you can see i attempted to make a pizza cake. it was cute. a little off color ... but cute. i decided though i am no pastry artist but that i do enjoy making my childrens cakes .... so much better then store bought. it makes both of us feel more special. they did the usual bday stuff, but mostly giggled and played.

today i took storie to lunch at PF Changs, and shopping for a "ball gown" her skool is putting on a daddy daughter ball in a few weeks and she wanted a "ball gown" desperately bad. we luckily found something so girly i can hardly stand it. its not me at all but i love what it is. its her, in all her 9 year old girly splendor ... and its soo much to heart. we had a great time shopping. earings, shoes, and a hair flower were also purchased to match!

as for an update ... i really have been avoiding doing this to be honest. i just feel like i have no good news to offer. and i also feel like we are ok. we are coping. we have had so much love and support over the last few months (years really) and i am so tired. you all must be tired of this too? but for those that have been buggin it comes down to this ....

another funeral looms in our future. my aunt is dying of cancer. she is in her last days. i have seen her several times over the last week or so including today. its a very sad thing, that sort of dampens the spirit of each day as memories and thoughts and concerns wear on you. i cant wait for her to be cancer free!

we got PH probe results back on stock ... left me feeling nothing short of completly naive! i really had just brushed that off after the biopsy results were neg. i guess i just thought that since i did a lot of the recording of PH levels and found them to be relatively normal that we were all good. not so .... so long story short the kid is on 4 different meds, rather then one, and takes meds 6 times a day. including at skool. i think the skool is starting to wonder what kind of DNA recreating machine i am. he is fine, he will be fine, and we will adjust. he may need surgery but it will be far into the future. for now he just has the med schedule of a 80 year old. no biggie!

saylor .... things are still rather rough and roller coaster like for her. we never know what day we will be on the ride and what day we will be in the line or what day we can sit and rest on the park bench. its become very evident to nate and i that she will need another bowell surgery. hard to talk about extensively yet. she still needs that other bladder surgery as well and in fact had some complications last week that screamed at us .... "sooner then later here people!" she also is fighting a pretty nasty UTI. she is not symptomatic but her cultures are horrible. since when has she ever made sense? but she is such an angel.

nate and i are well. i am over whatever it was i had but have been up since 3 am (thus the 6 am post) not feeling great, like something might be coming on. i so hope it doesnt really come on. we are just trying to balance all that life demands of us right now. we are headed to coalville here pretty soon for a state wrestling tourni for stock, then home and hopefully headed to the timpanogos T for a little divine intervention.