JUly 18th saylor will undergo a planned VCMG and renal ultrasound. this will be a precursor to augmentation at primary childrens sometime in the fall. we realize that this invasive scary procedure really may be our only option as much as we would like otherwise, so we have decided to go forward with needed tests. we are still working through emotions, fears, concerns, and choices etc... some moments are good some not so good. but we are well.
saylor, the other kids and I went to the zoo today. she was amazing and walked i would say about 70% of it.
one thing that has really impressed me as we sort through all this, is to remember that i have feared this much before, i have been this scared, i have had to make this hard of a decision about her, and it has hurt this bad. its been a while though, its hard to remember feelings. for so many years all the surgeries we have been through have been so easy to decide upon. so clear cut, so practical and safe (well as safe as going under the knife can be i guess.) in the end i know we are capable with the helping of a loving father in heaven.