Tuesday, August 12, 2008
oh the places we go ... like 7-11
Today was a better day. does that make sense? i was thinking the longer she was on the diet the more hungry she would be and the more she would crave real food with depth so in following the more ornery she would be. not the case. she was really pleasant and happy all day today. not much complaining at all. i also am doing much better then i expected myself to be doing ... i guess cause she is leading the way. i am calm and at peace and not near as emotional as i thought i would be (not to say i am not emotional ... i am.) i thought to get out of the house today we would go to 7-11 and get slurpee's because this is a treat saylor can have on her diet. i was astounded to realize that my kiddos didnt even know what a slurpee was .... what kind of mom am I? perhaps its the lack of 7-11's on every corner like there was when i was a kid.
so is it just me or have slurpee's changed drastically in the last few years .. ok many years. so i havent purchased one of these straight sugar shots for some time but i just remember the flavors being so much more enticing. today they had little to offer us and left all 4 of us disappointed and only one of us finishing this sugar slush supposed to be delight and that was saylor .. . i guess thats what was important in the end.
we have before surgery traditions (this is weird ...) anyhow one of them is to read "oh the places you'll go" by Dr seuss. good life book. good facing a challenge book. it reminds me of one of my dearest friends jolynn ... she gave it to me just before we left to san fran for fetal surgery. this brave woman has and does face extreme trials and she knows how to reach me like we are soul sisters, i love her dearly. i actually am very blessed to have several of these spirit sisters in my life. ok enough of that. so we read the book as a family. the kids also got their before school blessing since school starts while we are still going to be at PCMC. of course saylor also got a blessing. Peace is reverberating through out our house and all is calm. we also had family prayer. i feel like all the concerns i have had about her fear issues and her fighting the fear issues have subsided, i feel like they either will be cared for by a stronger parent (HF) or i will have the capability to do it. i didnt feel this before, i was terrified.
today the DAYTONS, STRATTONS, AND ANDERSENS stopped by with cute gifts and love. so grateful.
tomorrow we will fast with saylor for all those that need a little reminder and we are so grateful for the friends and family that our joining us in this faithful symbolic sacrafice, it means a great deal.